Week 1 Day 1

This morning I was going to wake up at six am go for a run, take a shower and then wake the baby up at seven. Well, I heard the alarm go off and went back to sleep. I woke up when the baby did.I think I kept putting off my first run all morning, loading up my time with other things that had to be accomplished. Going to the grocery store, dishes, cleaning et cetera.

Finally I decided to buckle down and just got my butt outside. I stretched a bit and set my iPod up to start the first PodRunner for C25K.

I started walking down the driveway and up the road to the right and was thinking that I would never make it back in one piece, let alone breathing. When I got to the top of the hill, though everything just looked amazing. All of the fall leaves are of brilliant colors and the sun was shining. The wind was blowing the leaves in little tornadoes all across the road. It was wonderful.

Then it hit me, the notification sound when off on the song to let me know it was time to start running. I couldn't feel my legs, I prayed to God for it to be over so I could catch my breath. My chest was burning like I was chugging a hot drink and it felt like cement was forming around my calves. Then the sweet sound of relief came with the cue for me to walk again.

At one point when I was supposed to be jogging, I broke out it a full run. I was on the flat part of the road and no houses could see me. I was just so in love with the world at that moment. I thought "I could do this, I could be a runner". I just felt free. No one to judge me for what I look like. Just me, by myself, loving life and enjoying the world.

It continued like this for the better half of an hour. I made it back to the base of the driveway when the bell went off again for the finally run. I chickened out and decided to carry the three huge garbage bins up the hill instead of running. I could have done it, I know I could have. I am somewhat disappointed because I tried to tell myself I was still working out even though I skipped the last run.I'll just have to remember that feeling come Wednesday when I start out again.

It was actually easy, once it was over. I made it out alive. I didn't die from running. And to me, that is profound.

Well, I got to make it official, I suppose, to hold myself accountable. I am starting the Couch to 5k program on Monday, October 12, 2009. It is a nine week program designed to get you in shape for a 5k which is a little over 3 miles.

I am scared and excited. I want to get into shape real bad. I've never really started anything and stuck with it for very long. But I really want this. I want this for myself and for my family.

Ernie is going to do it with me, but because of school and Sophia we have to do it on separate days. The program says to run 3 days a week with one day in between. We are going to alternate days in the week and then on Saturday we will run together. I think it's a great idea. Gives us something to do alone and together.

Wish me luck!

We've been trying to get Sophia to fall asleep in her crib alone. And ever since we started we've had sleepless nights. We've tried the Crying it out thing. Doesn't work for my kid. The pick up put down method has the same result. The both end in tears from both of us. About three hours of straight crying until exhaustion pulls us both down into a night full of tossing and turning.

So, now we've gone back to letting her fall asleep in my arms and transferring her to her crib. We started that back up last night and she didn't wake up until morning! She got a full ten hours of sleep. But I didn't trust that she would stay asleep so I didn't go to bed until midnight.

For the first time ever I cut up and boiled a whole chicken. It was nasty and more disgusting than I thought it ever would be. I decided to do it to save money. I might do it again. I'm not really sure I ever want to see all that fat, skin, blood, bones and miscellaneous parts though. If I wasn't so grossed out by chicken germs being everywhere it might become routine. I'm so afraid I will touch something and forget to wipe it down and infect my family with salmonella poisoning.

Ernie got me a webcam for Easter. I've been wanting one so my Mom can see Sophia. She gets really sad thinking about her growing up and not being able to be here to see it. Considering everything my Mom has on her shoulders currently, I wanted to lighten her spirits. Plus all my online friends and Sassy sisters will be able to see my little chunker! Add me on MSN. I'm on all the time.

We're trying to get Sophia to be more mobile. When she is on her tummy she can roll onto her back, move around in circles, and slide backwards. Although, I'm sure the later is not on purpose.

My friend from high school that I haven't talked to in ages just had her baby girl. We are going to meet up, hopefully, on Wednesday. I can't wait to see her and her little bundle!

I've been trying really hard to eat well and exercise everyday. I have the treadmill in the living room now so I have no excuse not to use it. Sophia has been coming with my on my walks. She likes to fall asleep as I am sweating my ass off trying to climb up all the hills. It's really fun actually. I wish I had a work out buddy.

Now I am not so patiently waiting for my husband to get home. I miss him and can't wait to snuggle him and talk about our day. Plus piggy has had only one real nap today, so I won't mind the break he will bring.

I will leave you with new pics of my love: